Respectfully Yours,
J.

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Dear Miss ANGIE,
God is able!
Thank you so much for sending me an inspirational message. It helps me a lot in strengthening my faith to the Lord. 

God bless you more!!!!

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I would like to subscribe to your monthly newsletter. Thank you and more power. God Bless!

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Dear Ma'am/Sir,
     Christian greetings! I'm requesting that your kind and gracious office please send my friend Christians newsletters entitled Detach With Love, Forgiveness, Submission, More on Submission, and On Knowing Ourselves.  Please let us pray for him as well as he will get to know the Lord Jesus Christ as his personal Savior and that he may grow in God's saving Knowledge. I'll be grateful with all my heart in your good office if you will give attention to my letter and request. Thank you very much.
Very Truly Yours,
C.R.T
From Philippines

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I would like to know more about marriage.
J.A.

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Thank you and God Bless
K.

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God Bless!
C.A.

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Thank you for your newsletters!
R.C.

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Pray for my wife and daughter, they went to Mexico. Thank you.
R.

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Please send me newsletters on issues regarding marriage, and how would our marriage become better.....
P.

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I do appreciate this ministry. It is so encouraging in my daily walk with Christ. I will keep you in my prayers in all your daily duties. 
E.N.

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Looking for some advice.
R.B.

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Dear Miss Angie,

The love of God endures forever! I'm very grateful to be one of your subscribers to your newsletter. I found very interesting and can help build up my family and of course in my spiritual life as well. More power to you and God bless us always. 

Sincerely yours,
J. 

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Hello, This is S. I received your articles in my email from a good friend of mine a few days ago. I must tell you that I just loved this article  (communication) and, could not stop from reading on!!!
I have always been interested in people relationships (who isn't???), and this article really helped me to solidify certain beliefs that I kept inside but, could not easily manifest in reality due to a lack of courage. I realize now that in communicating my feelings in a calm manner with others in times of frustration can really resolve my stress that I have been experiencing lately these days. It will actually make my life easier. 
     Of course, the unconditional love I would require to carry out the communication in the right way so that it will not result in arguments. Only thing that really worries me is does this unconditional love thing really apply to dating relationships? Not give all attitude but, to let the man know how I really feel...wouldn't this usually sabotage the development of the relationship that it may "scare off" the man???

Love in Christ
S. 

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Good afternoon.
Thank you very much for the Marriage Alive Newsletter. I would like to inform you of my new email address. Thank you and God bless you!
E.

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Dear Angie,

God is good all the time! Hello Ma'am, I just want you to know that I am so blessed and touched by your articles entitled "Forgiveness" and "Knowing Yourself" it gave a big impact to my life. Will you please do me a favor ma'am? Can you send a copy of those articles to my email address? I want to print them out so that every time I feel upset I will read them and for sure they will give me inspiration and to challenge me to go deeper in my relationship towards my fellowship and most especially to our God. Hoping for your kind and consideration. 
Yours Truly,
J.
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Please send to me your free newsletters through my contact address. I really appreciate your good job at Heaven Ministries. Please keep it up and do not relent in your efforts to proclaim the good news. Our society really needs it. 
C.U.

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Thank you so much for the Marriage Alive Newsletters. We now have a better understanding to be faithful to one another.
J & G. Q.

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Hi Angie!
My name is S.H. By reading your articles (e-book) I realize how much I lack wisdom going into any relationship. But I am grateful to God that god is preparing me as a better partner for the future relationship through your ministry.
     I see God already working out and testing out some of your principles in my life, and I see god moving my life directing and guiding this special relationship in my life right now.
     I would love to read your articles and books, so please continue to educate young people like myself and save us from further headaches. 

God Bless!
S. 

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Thank you, Angie, for your prompt reply, I will be looking forward for the next issue. I honestly love to write that one of my future goals is to publish at least one book in my life. I am very excited that you are providing this opportunity for me to participate in your publishing the newsletter!!! I was not expecting such a blessing!

Excited,

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Dear Angie,
Thank you for your reply and thoughtful feedback! I once have sent you a feedback on your article of Communication in relationships. I loved what I read!
     I'll be more than happy to share my thoughts with other readers of your newsletter!!!
S

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I know it's a tough thing to practice, to have such loving patience, yet if people can just let the thought seep through their minds, I feel that it may help them to become more courageous to do so.
S.

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Dear Angie,

Thank you for writing me. I'm doing great here in the Philippines by god's grace and loving kindness. I praise and thank God. God less you all through out. Reaching out with the love of Jesus. C. 

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Questions from our readers

Question: I've been married for 14 years (with spouse for over 20 years in total). Everything we do revolves around
him and I feel I've been neglected for 12+ years as he spends way more time with his friends than with me.
So I told him this and now he wants to be with me all the time, but I resent that I had to tell him to spend
more time with me and now I could care less if we do anything together. Now what do I do?

Please only respond to this email address.

Thank you.

Heaven Ministries reply:

Dear S.C,

I am sorry it has taken me so long to respond to your email. My family has been visiting from out of town.

Back to your question.  Many times, especially after being married for many years, we find that we do go our own way and neglect each other in the simple things of marriage, such as eating meals together or even having
daily chats of how our day went.  
     Sometimes what happens is we resent each other because we have not spent any REAL time together. Friends and family, without realizing it, take us away from our loved ones and so we must be careful of that.  Pretty soon we realize that we have not spent anytime with who really matters in our life. And that is what happened with your husband.
     It sounds to me from your email that your husband does want to spend time with you and that he even missed being with you. But, you do need to find a balance. The balance I am referring to is not spending every minute
together, but spending quality time together that helps to enrich the marriage. Simple things such as making sure that every meal is spent together, and having a time every day where you can both talk about how your
day went.  
     Also, friends are okay to have, but they should never come first in your marriage. Do you have friends that you both enjoy socializing with? 
     Try to spend at least one day a week going out to a movie, dancing or strolling your city with your husband alone. This is spending quality time.
     I do not want you to feel resentful for telling your husband that you want to spend more time with him. This tells him that you love him, which is something that we forget to say sometimes. Be honest with him and let him
know that you do not need to be together every spare moment you have, but that you would like to share more quality time with him. If you are doing something that you both enjoy TOGETHER, you will be spending that quality
time that all marriages need.  I hope that I answered your question. email me again. I want to hear from you.

Angie Lewis

Question: This email is directed to A.J Lewis - author of doing the cleanse article

I have read your article concerning the Psyllium Husk cleanse and wanted to know if there is any maintenance after the 3 month cleanse? After the three months, do you totally discontinue the drink or reduce the amount to a smaller portion?

Thanks,

L

Heaven Ministries reply: 

Hello L! Thank you for your interest in the Psyllium Husk cleanse. The cleanse program is only for the three months and after that time, you may discontinue taking the Psyllium Husk drink. 
     If you are thinking about doing the cleanser, let me know how you are doing. You may email me with your progress and any questions you have at anytime.

In His Peace,
Angie Lewis

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Hi, my name is M. L and I'm going through divorce it is a very difficult situation. This is my second marriage and also for my husband and we have being married for 19 months. He filed for divorce 3 months ago there is no adultery both of us are Christians and we are commit to Jesus Christ. I do not agree with the divorce but the church supports him. I have 3 children from my first marriage and two live with us. He has also 3 children
one live with us and the other two with their mom. Since August he cut all financial support and kick me and my children out from our house complain that I do not have rights to be in the house and that I'm posses by demons.
I did not leave the house and he requested to the court to take me out from the house our church protects him and the pastor toll me that I do not have any rights to stay in the house and that my husband do not have any responsibility with my children  because they do not have my husband's blood (the blood of Jesus was not enough) .  My husband gives a lot of money to the church and he is serving as a spiritual counsel in the altar and the
pastors know what he is doing and no one tells him anything. 
     I had court two days ago and I represented myself and contrary to the church the commissioner toll my husband that since he did not include the my children
in his petition for divorce he is going to include and is going to make sure that they are protected (my husband in his file putted that there are no children involve) and is very sad that a world court is more compassionate
than the ones that who represent the Lord. Also the commissioner gave me
four choices in the house issue
1 Sell my part to my husband
2 Buy his part
3 Sell the house
4 Split the house

I toll the commissioner that I need counsel and he gave me 15 days to go back and respond my husband's petition for the divorce other wise he will be granted with everything he is asking for. I do not know what to do I want to be obedient to the Lord and I do not want the divorce responding is like agreeing with it. I do not know if I should look for a attorney or not please, give me your advice according to God's will for marriages.

Heaven Ministries Reply: 

Hello M. L
     There are two separate issues at work here.

     One is the legalities of your situation.
The other your wanting to do the Lord's will.
     About the legalities it just means what rights the courts grant you as a citizen.  But this has nothing to do with our Lord's will and your response.
     I don't know details and am not sure I would need to know but what it comes down to is accepting the lord's will for your life.  You are not responsible for another persons actions and the Lord will not hold it against you if you did not provoke it. The lord will not hold you responsible for divorce if that is your concern about entering into the proceedings.  All that means is
that you are using the muscle of the state to do something. 
     As Christians we are to run from thieves and on the other hand we are to suffer for His name's sake.
     One has nothing to do with the other.
     This teaching on marriage is tough to preach but in the Lord's eyes you are not divorced from your "first" husband.
     Our lord Jesus Christ never granted the right to divorce.  This is a fiction that man has invented to suit his own lusts.  See the scriptures about "what God has put together let not man separate"
     Also where Apostle Paul says "if the unbelieving spouse leaves, you are not bound" meaning you don't have to chase after him but you are not divorced either.  
     In this case he says he is a believer but is not acting like one. In any case you are not lawfully married to this man in the Lord's eyes even though you may have the approval of the court and or society.
     I would say to handle your affairs in as peaceful manner as possible and since this man has gone to the courts and has the backing of his church you are not going to change his mind.
     Only take what rightfully belongs to you.  You may need to pray about this, and also pray for this man that he may treat you in a favorable manner with peace and kindness.  If you respond with love you may be surprised and if not at least you did what our Lord requires of us, and that is to respond
with love.
     Try to reconcile with your first husband.  If it doesn't seem possible pray for him. Pray for acceptance of the Lord's will for you and your family.
     Make preparations to be on your own without this man.
     I appreciate very much your willingness to stay married to this man but I am not sure as to the details as far as whether or not your marriage was lawful in the eyes of the Lord.

In His Peace and Love,
Heaven Ministries

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Question: 
Dear Advice,

I'm five and a half month pregnant and soon I'm gonna have to stop my regular job as a nurse to take care of the new baby. Do you know of a work at home job that can help me generate an income while I'm taking at least 3 months off, to help with my husband's salary?

Heaven Ministries reply:

Hi. Thank you for writing.
You're on the right track by wanting to stay at home with your new baby. While I don't know of a work at home job for you at this time, I do want to stress how important it is to not let that fact change your position in any way.  Staying at home with your baby is and should be first on your priority list in our opinion.  From a scriptural point of view.
     There are things that you can do and start thinking about that will help you in one way or another.  Start thinking in terms of what you can do for yourself and your family to save money.  As you may have heard a penny saved is a penny earned and we believe that self reliance is reliance on God.
     Perhaps you can let some of your God given talents out of hibernation so to speak, in the sense that you can renew your sense of creativity and find a way where there appears to be no way.   After all, faith is hope of things unseen.  So I'm asking you to go on faith.
     At the same time, it would be a good idea to try to fellowship and stay in contact with other like minded stay at home moms and or families for help and support.  
     In the meantime you could still keep your eyes and ears open for stay at home work opportunities, but be careful as there are a lot of scams out there.  It would be preferable if you put the word out in your community about the skills you have that you can use to assist them with from your own home.
     I really don't want to get too long here although I have quite a bit more that I could share with you on this but I will cut my stay before wearing out my welcome, since I don't really know you or where your talents and interests lie.

In Jesus' name
Angie Lewis

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Dear Advice:
My family has been undergoing witch attacks from our upstairs neighbor for more than 2 years now.  We have been ceaselessly praying for protection and relief, but the attacks continue.  What the Lord has so far given us is the endurance to bear them and get on with our daily life.  We do not want to move to another house (that's what our neighbor wants, due to unprovoked envy) because we do not want to make them feel they've won.  Apparently, they've been doing this to previous tenants of the unit we live in, probably to other tenants as well, who choose to remain silent.  Please counsel us on how to effectively fight this witchcraft through God's help.  My wife, Prima, and daughter, Donna, are already members of the Christian Gospel Center, while I'm still preparing myself to join the church.  Thank you and God bless.

M. G
16 Jan 2004

Heaven Ministry reply
Dear M. G family,

This is an unusual prayer request.  I would like to ask you, are your neighbors upstairs actually doing anything physical to harm you and your family? Or... are they just trying to scare you? Have you tired talking with your neighbors to see why they might feel envious?
     I can understand how frustrating this may be. Realize this and believe it: God's goodness and light overpower the darkness. The darkness and all things associated with it, like witchcraft does not hold a candle to the LIVING, SPIRITUAL God. Keep up with your faith in the Lord and He will watch over your family.
     You can also try writing a note to them, explain that they are wasting their time on your family, since you live in Christ's Love and Faith. Add a few of your own touches, but nicely to the effect that you are not moving. Do not be mean or say anything derogatory about them. Tell them, "right now this is where God has planted us and we are not moving." Explain to them about the ALL POWERFUL GOD in whom you reside.
     Sign the note with God Bless and may the spirit of Jesus come into your life.  Slip the note under the door.
     In the meantime, do a little spiritual work of your own. Play gospel and hymns so they can hear it. Sing loud and dance, praising the Lord and do this especially when they are trying to scare you.  Say the Lord's prayer real loud several times.
     Please keep me informed. I would like to know any changes.
     God Bless you and your family with the mighty power of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior!
Angie Lewis

Question:
Hi, Angie~  Happy New Year!!!

This is S!  I am asking for your prayers so that I can overcome this addiction...  I've had several heartbreaks over the failed relationships which never blossomed into marriage yet, have always been brought up by the
man I date in each relationship in the past. The issue that would break up the relationship generally is due to pre-marital sex--that I am unwilling have a fear to go that far before the marriage) and the men want this that even if they would respect my wishes and don't force me into doing anything else, they'd be looking for other girls to get involved...  This would cause the separations in general... I fear to get involved in an exclusive relationship, in which I do my best to love and care for my boyfriend in a balanced manner, for I'd get afraid
that he, too, will flee from me due to this issue... In my last relationship, I tried to communicate with my previous bf in regards to my beliefs and, where I am coming from.  But, he wound up abandoning the relationship at 4th month mark, by stop calling and responding to my
calls...  I've read so many relationship books that I do not act desperate... do not call the guy persistently, etc.  Then, my addiction came about--I started calling Psychics... There were many times that they have
predicted things to unfold very accurately that I was amazed, and I became a regular caller in regards to my relationships--how he may be thinking, feeling, how he will act, what will happen, will he come around???, etc...
I am very ashamed about this and have tried to stop myself from calling for several months but eventually repeat the same habit... I've lost so much money on this as well... I logically know that this is very foolish thing to
do as an intellectual person who has gained many people's respect in what I do and, overall, as a Christian, who also has participated in missions...
     After reading your Jan. issue on Spiritual life as a Christian, I have decided to email you, with my unresolved issue. I've started Q.T every night, reading His Word, and praying to God...    Yet, I am just so tired of my heartaches over the failed relationships and my stupidity in this addiction of Psychic callings...   Would you pray for me???  Would you have any advice for me??? Exhausted, S...

Heaven Ministries Reply:
Hi S.

It's good to hear from you. I just want you to know that I understand your frustration totally and completely.
You have already taken the first step in the right direction by making this inquiry. Let me explain:
Remember when Abraham and Sarah laughed at God when he told them he would give them child.  They thought they were too old (over 100) and to our carnal minds they were.  But God did just that (gave them child at that age) but not before Abraham and Sarah took matters in their own hands first.
     The good thing is that you recognize your weakness in your frustration at events not turning out as you would want them to. The other side of the coin is that we as followers of Christ need to be mindful of the culture around us. We as followers of Christ are in a tight spot.  We want to do the Lord's will but the culture does not cooperate.  We must learn to wait on him.  Wait for his will and purpose.
     Is there something in your life that is making you feel pressured for an outcome?  For example, some (Christian) women feel they are getting too old if they haven't found a suitable mate by the age of 21.
     Are you sure that "dating" is God's will for you?  I personally don't think it is. "dating" is the mindset of this culture and it appears from what you state that is the brick wall you keep running into. When God answers our prayers would we be open to his suggestions?  Or would we laugh like Abraham and Sarah and then take matters into our own hands?
     You are blessed with the strength of God through your willingness to stay a virgin until you are married. It will truly be a very lucky and blessed man who will eventually win your heart. Stay strong, S. God knows your troubles and will not give you more than you can handle.
     We must seek the Truth for our answers. Fortune tellers and Psychics are false interpretations of what is Truth and Wisdom. They know their job well and that is why many things seem to be accurate, but it is an illusion to keep you coming back for more. What is True is already in your heart...you said that you know it is foolish...and so there lies your answer. Your Spirit within you (Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ) has given you the answer.
     Don't give up hope on EVER finding the right person for you in your life. Wait on Him for His will and purpose for you. Keep seeking Truth and what you believe--God is with you every step of the way. We here at Heaven Ministries are praying for you. Email me back if you want, I am here for you.

In Christ's Love and Peace, Hope and Happiness,
Angie Lewis

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Question: I would deeply appreciate some advice, and tips on saving my marriage. I could lose the very person who means the world to me. Thank you and GOD BLESS YOU!

Heaven Ministries Reply: 
I would love to give you any advice I can from the foundation of Jesus Christ. In so doing, I am sending you the latest, Marriage Alive Newsletter, which Heaven Ministries publishes once a month. You did not go into detail on the problems that you may be having in your marriage, and so at this point I would not know what kind of advice I could give you. Except, that to allow the Love of Jesus Christ to fill your heart and from your heart direct your marriage accordingly. I hope that this particular newsletter will bring you some understanding and wisdom into any area of your life. 
God Bless! I hope to hear from you again. 
A.J Lewis

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Question: There are sins that I love, and I try to give them up  but I just can't do it. Will God count me as an enemy even though I try and fail? Will he send me to hell even though I am sorry for my sins, but I keep going back to them.? Thank you, A

Heaven Ministries reply: 
Dear A, 
When we sin and we know it to be wrong, we have a choice to choose the right path, which is of God or the wrong path, which is not of God, and the sinful nature of man. We all sin - even great Christian's sin. But we do need to have more faith and Trust in God so we do not continue in the sin. Also, many times a person does fall into sin through the associations they keep. Once they stop associating with certain crowds and people, the temptation to sin passes away. 
     If you have a hard time giving up a particular sin, I would venture to say it is because your heart is not with the Lord as it should be. In other words, When we continue to sin when we know that it is wrong, we are not ready in our hearts to give it up. It is a war between the flesh and the spirit within you. You must really want to stop sinning and plead to God to give you the strength to not be tempted into the sin again. God knows your heart and He hears your cries. 
     Hang in there. Keep praying so your weakness can be flung out the window for good! If you would like to talk about this more, please do not hesitate to email me, I will be here for you.

God Bless!
Angie Lewis
Heaven Ministries

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Heaven Ministries reply:  

Christ's peace upon your household.

  The minister
Heaven Ministries

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Question: Dear Angie, Thank you for replying so soon.
My question is how do I keep a marriage alive when I have been separated 10 years as my husband is in Prison in mainland. He has another 10 years to do. I am in Hawaii we don’t see each other for years on end. No contact. Feel single, can’ t remember what marriage is. Kids hurt. I hurt & ache all time from missing him. My flesh is torn. I don’t know if I can wait another 10 years. I have prayed & stood & held on for life. My husband keeps telling me to move on.
he does not understand how I can wait. Lost all my family & friends nearly over this marriage.
Help! any wisdom would be appreciated.
Y.

Heaven Ministries reply:

Dear Y.

Your husband is a very lucky man! I believe that God has given you the strength you need to continue on with what you are doing--waiting for your husband's return. In the eyes of the Lord, you are doing the right thing. In the eyes of your friends and family, they do not see it that way. They do not really understand what marriage is and what it stands for. You obviously still love your husband and that gives you even more reason to wait for his return.  What I think you need is encouragement from others because you are not getting that from your families and friends, and I am sorry about this.
Ten-years is a long time to wait when you look at it from the viewpoint of the culture. But in the eyes of the Lord 10-years is just a another day.  Continue on with the love you have for your husband, remembering him through photo's and good times that you have shared. I will pray for you and for God to give you the strength you need to carry on with peace and hope for you and your children. God is your guiding light!

Angie Lewis
Heaven Ministries

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Question: Me and my wife have been married for 20 yrs. About 3 weeks ago she stopped showing me affection. I'm not talking about sex. I confronted her about it and she said everything is bothering her. Her dad has Lou Gehrigs disease and  her mother makes her feel guilty when we go away for a weekend She also said she doesn't know if she has the right kind of love for me anymore.  She also said she has been harboring pain for 20 years funny she didn't show it. She goes to church every Sunday I have going back lately. I have never cheated on her and I told her I will not cheat. any Ideas?

Heaven Ministries Reply: You sound like a very concerned husband We need more of those in the world. Apparently your wife is harboring resentment from past issues and they are obviously mounting up within her. Your wife needs an outlet for ridding her emotional issues. Possibly she needs to forgive those who have hurt her. After she can forgive she can learn to set boundaries for herself so not to allow others to hurt her again.
     She obviously doesn’t tell you when she feels hurt or disrespected, since she has been unhappy for 20 years. Because I do see that you are concerned about your wife, how sad. This is not your fault. Put bluntly, your wife has done this to herself by not telling others what her
boundaries are, such as her mother, friends and even you.
     Also, from what I am understanding in your post, she is feeling  burdened by her parents health issues and feels it is her responsibility to take care of them in their old age. Your wife is a people pleaser kind of person and doesn't want to let anyone down. (most people are pleasers) That is why she feels guilty when away from her ailing parents. People pleasers tend to mask their true feelings and instead
harbor unpleasant feelings Later. Harboring negative feelings turn into resentment and bitterness. 
     Another issue: We are to honor our mother and dad, we should do the best we can to assist them in their older years and especially if they are really needing it. This is something that you will need to talk about with your wife. Maybe she feels that you do not want the burden of her parents?? You did not tell me your feelings about this issue, so I am only speculating. 
     Your wife can be happy again and so can you. But your wife has to be willing to make an effort on her part. You said that she goes to Church and that you have started going too. Obviously she is either keeping quiet about her feelings or the church is unable to help her.  Do you have any other spiritual outlets, such as bible study, or singing and praising to the Lord that you can do at home? Both of these initiated by you in the home on a consistent basis will really help both of you connecting spiritually with God. It is when we are bonded with Him that we can humble ourselves and ask for forgiveness, and His wisdom and love to guide our lives.  Your wife is calling out, but she is not calling out to God. Help her to call out to God. 

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Question: I have made my wife's life miserable because I have an addiction to porn, at first I did not want to admit it, but I now realize that I have to let it go to save my marriage. My spouse has not left me yet...but I know that she is at the point where she wants to go away. I can't live without her and I realize that a slave cannot have two masters...I chose my wife so what can I do to rebuild my marriage? Please help save my marriage.
F.

Heaven Ministries reply:

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Question:

Hi Angie!

I am struggling with every relationships because I have a hard time forgiving people who have done me wrong. I do want to forgive but because I have a hard time forgetting the incidents: therefore, I have a hard time letting go the past. People do not understand me why I can not forgive them sooner....
     I am fasting today so that God can intervene in my life so that I may not struggle in this particular area anymore.
     I need some time off and cool down before returning to the person when I am ready to talk about my emotions objectively. But most of the times most people are not very patient with me. I was wondering if this is biblical way of resolving differences. This is the only way I know how to resolve differences with people. and some people are pressuring me to change so drastically. I feel so unwelcome and unloved by this particular crowd.
     Do you have any word of advice? Please be in prayer for me. Thanks, S. H.

Heaven Ministries reply:
Forgiveness isn’t always an easy thing to do. Especially if we have been wounded and hurt by others. Forgiveness comes from the deep inner psyche of our being. I like to call it our spiritual selves. Just saying sorry to someone doesn’t free us from the emotions we are feeling.
     Sometimes when we are new at learning to forgive others it is easiest to confront that person and explain to them that you are hurting and would like to forgive them. Even if in your heart you haven’t forgiven them, you will be on the right track, knowing that you DO WANT to forgive. Look at it like a kind of training. It’s like when we forget to pray or are too busy to pray, it’s harder to get back in that mode of praying. The same goes for learning to forgive, it’s an act that we all need to learn to do, not just for the person we are forgiving but for ourselves. Usually after we practice forgiving, we actually DO forgive. 
     People aren’t always nice, not even our friends or loved ones, it could be that they are hurting too, this is why learning to forgive is so important for our inner being to be free and happy. Once you have truly
forgiven others, your friends will see a change in you. But it’s not your friends who changed you, but yourself.
     Forgiving someone frees us from resentment and bitterness. I think from reading your letter that the pressure you are feeling is your pent up emotions rearing to come out, but you’re not sure how to get it all
out. Past issues can literally make ourselves feel unloved and unwanted. Sometimes, too, people treat us the way we feel about ourselves. If we don’t feel good about ourselves others will notice that and treat us accordingly, whether it’s criticizing or putting us down in front of others. I don’t think it’s in a malicious way, but to make themselves feel better, So remember that!
     When we don’t forgive someone when we have been hurt. we tend to hold on to it and that is why the past events have been creeping up on you. The more people that have wronged us the more bitter and
resentful we feel towards them. People, such as your friends see that you are frustrated with your emotions and that is why you feel they are trying to change you. But. S. H., no one can change you, the more they try to change you, the more pressure you will feel. The only person who can change you is yourself. We do this through the Lord our God. we absolutely need to put our Trust and Faith in God and He will give us the strength we need to forgive and love others. 
     I believe your heart is in the right place. You want to forgive, but don’t think that you can. Know in your heart that you are a special person for who you are and that your friends can’t change you. Pray for God to help release your pent up resentment and let the past go. God will help you forgive others, when He knows that you are ready to let the past go and forgive. When you do this, you will have already changed
for yourself by the freeing of your wounded spirit. Your friends will notice that your self esteem is intact and they will in return treat you with the respect you deserve.
     Forgiveness takes courage. Sometimes we just need to let down our wounded pride and forgive. Thank God that He has given us a part of himself (Holy Spirit) to be forgiven and forgive others.
     Please keep me informed on how you are doing. I want to hear from you again. I am praying for you and for God to intervene in your troubles.

Angie Lewis
Heaven Ministries

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Angie Lewis
Heaven Ministries

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